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it's...like 7 AM and i got REALLY TRASHED with marty and brody last night and omg i have to go to school in an hour and a half i am SO BUSTED. it was sick though, we went swimming in this girl tina's pool and then brody and i went to denny's. i drew stick figure art on the napkins! but omg. my head is going to hurt so bad in like 3 hours and i FAIL planning but it was so so so fun. eddie hung out with us at the bar! but he had to go be grown up, lol, he's cool though.

i'm not going to sleep cause if i do i will craaash, i'm just going to have coffee. i have to be in morning classes b/c there's a lab in chem BUT i'll skip 7th and 8th and sleep. idk how i'll get a ride home but i guess nesto can take me, lol not like he does anything in school anyway.

alex my wonderful bf ilu CALL ME when you get a chance or i'll call you at lunch, whatever.

BYE <3

( sofisticat lol okay sure )

so I forgot my birthday. WHOOPS. Hi, I'm 16 now!

bernard bailed. biiig fucking surprise. I hope my mom finds someone better this time around.

anyway, alex came over and it was nice. I like it when he walks me home and soon it won't be so colllld I hate chicago sometimes.

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Maria is home alone! OH NO. In some places this would mean party ninjas would bust through the window and have a rave, but right now it mostly means she's checking the phone every two and a half minutes and wondering when her mom might get home. She did not like that guy. For reasons. Still, she's trying not to fuss about it, and has consequently been occupying herself with cooking and thinking about the few items she has hidden under her bed.

Items a 15-year-old girl probably shouldn't have, but when has she ever been that concerned about that sort of thing? It's not as if it's drugs. ...because she went through the drug phase in ninth grade. Sophomore in high school is clearly too old for that nonsense. Sophomore is also apparently too old for pants, judging by how she's traipsing around without any. Although she does have a pink shiny monstrosity playing at being a 'football jersey' on! It's to sleep in.

She flips through a few stations on the radio until she comes up with something decent to fill the silence, and considers going out. This would surely not require pants.

My mom has a new boyfriend, too. I thought we were done with this. Ugh.

I mean he seems kind of nice. I guess. He's not sleazy or anything. But I still don't like him.

1) I have a boyfriend again.
2) he's really cute.
3) I MIGHT GET TO GO SOMEWHERE AWESOME WITH HIM if he wants to and Alexandra says yes.
4) ASSHOLES at school need to stop calling me or I'm going to lose my temper, ok.
5) I am grounded. But I don't care, I'm not listening.

I'm not going to get back with Nesto ever I think. he's been sweeter to me lately, more than usual and he doesn't want me messing with other dudes but I talked to Kenyon and he found the whole story pretty weird. I don't know about boys in my area (boys who actually like me, I guess there are ones I like but aren't feeling it back which is...new and I sound SO cocky but it's true). but he's probably the best I'm going to get ever and he's not that bad.

still, I think it was too chaotic.

something happened to Kenyon. Alex helped him out really good but then he took off but I might see him New Year's or maybe before, who knows.

my mom noticed how I've been trying to deal with the crackheads around the neighborhood today and called me a 'little avenger'. I think it was a good thing. I can't believe she noticed. I'm going to keep it up now.

so BASICALLY I've met awesome people. Stefan (Stephen? I think it's spelled Stefan though), Gates (versions thereof), Brody (omg goffff, he's fun), Kenyon (who is def. going to party with me if I can arrange it), etc. Also this kid named Alex on Christmas but that wasn't in the Nexus. He's cute. I don't know, homeless tho. Possibly I am going to get all foolish again. maybe.

Last night there was this guy in the bar (mid-late 20s? Mordecai, amazing name, right) and we were flirting, he's really cute but it was Denied by outside sources. fucking unfair. I can't wait until I'm 18 and people can't pull this on me any more. oh well. MAYBE I am planning a New Year's thing but I'll have to drum up interest first. last year was kind of a hot mess, so I don't want to repeat that.

I'm going to see if Nesto will help me out with something big, not party related, not really fun, when we go back to school. he owes me for being such a shitty boyfriend & messing with other girls when we were together. he's rolling with the GDs now and thinks he's real cool, it's hilarious. but it means he knows people. so that's something.

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